What The F**k Is Wrong With Me?! (Liza)

Liza had been downstairs in the shop when she got the message from Austin and she sighed a little. She knew what this was about and she felt bad for Austin.  She had been trying to stay neutral in all of this, but sometimes it was not easy. Walking upstairs she could not help but sigh when she heard Austin and immediately walked over to her fridge and poured herself a glass of blood wine.

"It is not the first time someone has fallen in love with someone else's someone."  Liza sat as she kicked off her heels and went and sat down on the couch waving her hand and changing into a pair of jeans and a nice red blouse.  "Tell me why it is so wrong, maybe Talon likes you too.  Maybe she is torn too."

Liza could not believe that Austin was willing leaning against her, but she was going to take everything she could get.  She found herself rubbing his back as he laid his head on her chest.  “Well you’re not the only one who is in love with someone they are not meant to have.”
 

Liza thought listened to Austin talk about what he knew about the relationship between Talon and Joseph and just continued to rub his back.  Liza understood all too well how it felt to love someone and wanted to be with them at all costs, but knowing that.  “Austin I am in love with a man and know that he is in love with me.  We both know that we are not meant to be.”  Liza sighed as she thought of the moment that she was able to have with him.  “We know that both of us would not survive without your brother in our lives.  We will be happy with the ones that we are supposed to be with.  We can both still love the others.”

Liza sighed as she listened to Austin talk about what she was willing to do with Joseph, even though she was unsure if Austin knew it was Joseph she was talking about.  “I am not so sure about the willing part.”  Liza sighed a little more, but held Austin close to her while he talked.  “We both want to be together Austin, just ask him sometime.  We both know that in the end neither one of us will be happy in the end.”  Liza sighed thinking about their conversation.  “Well he would do anything to make me happy but we would end up miserable.” 
 

Liza knew that Austin was pissed at the spirits and she could understand that,  “I know that Nathaniel and Starla are a perfect addition in my life, but that doesn't mean that was what I wanted when this life started out.  Hell I didn’t want to be a vampire either, but look at me now.”  Liza stated.  “So tell what is it about Talon that makes you want her so bad?  Because I know you well enough its not to just win against your brother, there are feelings there.”

Liza felt so bad for Austin and wished there was something that she could do to help him. She realized now that as a parent it broke her heart that she could not make the pain go away. It killed her for awhile when she couldn't be with Joe, it was like her heart was tearing apart. It was hard in the beginning not to be in the same room with him and not throw her arms around him. But when she met Nate and spent time with him she started to understand what the fates were trying to tell her.

Liza walked over to Austin and placed her hand over his heart and smiled at him softly, "It hurts in the beginning, but as you see how happy she will be with your bother, the pain will fade." Liza sighed, "We will always love them, but we will be there to support them in their life." Liza smirked, "If Joseph treats her bad after this, I will be glad to hold him down so you can beat the shit out of him." Liza was trying to make Austin feel a little better.

"You see wonderful qualities in her and those will always be there. There will be another who will bring those feelings out of you again, I have seen it, it will just take time." Liza said as she kisses his cheek, "I love you and we will get through this together."

Liza wished she could take away the pain that Austin had inside of him and make it all better; she also wished she could take the pain away that will happen when Talon turned and fell in love with Joseph.    She knew that feeling all too well, but when you find someone new things start to change.  “I was kind of hoping that you knew that I know you’re alive, and that there is nothing wrong with you.”
 
Liza just sighed as she listened to everything that Austin was saying and even asking her.  The problem was the pain does fade and only does once you meet someone to take it away.  “You don’t want to hurt, but what do you think is going to happen when you have to let her go after getting so attached to her?”  Liza asked.  “I will always love Joe and he will always love me, at least I hope, but we both know in the long run neither of us will be happy.”  Liza said with a sigh, “But I know I can be happy with Nathaniel and Starla.”
 

Liza listened to everything else that Austin had to say and she could not help but sigh because she did not know what else to say to convince him to step back and let Joe have his chance at happiness.  To be honest Joe should have listened to Liza to begin with and they would not be in this mess.  “Well I may not agree with the way Joseph and you are handling the situation, but I guess I will be around to pick up the pieces.”

Liza sighed but decided that she was not going to comment any more about Austin's shell because it was apparent that once again he was listening, but not listening. "So you are regretting meeting Talon, did you know before you met her who she was?" Liza asked. "Did she know who you were beforw she met you?" Liza wondered, but even if Austin didn't understand what she was teying to explain, that was the main questions.

"I wasn't comparing Joe and you, because I know all to well that the two of you are completly different." Liza said with a sigh. "I was saying that Joe and I knew we could not be happy in the long run. Can Talon be happy with you and get everything that she wants from you." Liza asked showing that she was comparing the situation not his brother.

Liza listened to Austin continue talking aboit his fewlings and she realized she had been pacing a little while they talked. She was just remembering the last time and he was mad at her. "Just because she is destined to be with your brother as his mate does not mean she would not forget about you." Liza stated, "Talon is a very loving person and will always have room in her heart and life for her." Liza hoped he understood better, but she wasn't making him choose, she would stand behind him, as she stands behind Joe.

Liza felt her heart breaking for Austin because he could tell he realling love Talon and wished he could give her want she wants. Liza noticed that his ears and tail kept coming out and when he buried himself into her shoulder she could not help but place her arms around him holding him close too her. "I am so sorry you are hurting. But no matter how Talon feels for Joe she will always love you. She would not have run from you the day she met you any more than she would run from you today." Liza tried to reassure him, "Besides you will be the best uncle to their pups, you have to help me spoil them and think of all the things you can teach them".

There wasn't must Liza could do once Austin transformed completely into his wolf form. She sighed and then transformed into her black panther form and just laid her head onto of his head and licked him a couple of time just to let him know she was there.

It had been awhile since Liza had been in her panther form and she sighed with contentment as she laid there with Austin.  She just wanted him to feel better and know that things would get better for him and he would be happy with the person he was suppose to be happy with.  When he nipped at her she nipped back a little.

Liza could not help but snuggle a little closer when she heard him tell her he loved her, not very often did he say the words, but she always knew he did.  "I love you too, Austin.  My favorite little wolf."  She said with a lick, she always called him her little wolf only because he was younger than her it never had anything to do with anything else.

Austin looked at her as she nipped him back. Tail wagging a bit as he curled into her side. Nuzzling her and chrring loudly. "Mine. My weird cat snake woman mother." He said playfully. Purring louder and tail wagged. "One day be huge enough to ride on. The runts always turn big as adults." He said with another lick. Curling into her form tighter and laid his head on her more. "So comfy. So soft." He said contently. Tears still matting his fur but he was happy again. Quite content right here.

Liza could not help but lick Austin a little more as he curled into her. She was glad she was able to calm him down a little. of course she wished she could take away his pain, but knew that he would grown from it and it would get better.

"I believe you are softer than me, and one day you will be bigger than me." Liza sighed, "So when your bigger than me are you going to take care of me then?" She asked still licking his fur thinking he needed a bath,